08 May 2013

kind of...

i feel a little bad that you feel you can't talk about your worries with me. kind of. and sometimes i feel sad. kind of. it's perfectly fine though. because i know that everyone have their right to have their own special person to talk to right? of course! but lately i feel like, maybe you don't want to be close to me anymore?? i dunno... maybe it's just my own feelings?? because eventhough i try to act tough on the outside, i'm actually a little bit sensitive so my feels can just go crazy from time to time and i'm the type to keep it all inside. hm. well, if it's true, i just want to know what can i do to make our friendship the bestest ever, because really you should know that you are one of the few, few friends i would really die for. really. as i said, i'm not good at expressing my feelings. and maybe i don't show you enough how much i really appreciate you as my friend but i hope you know it. i hope in the future you can feel more open to talk to me because i will always listen even if i don't have any words to respond because i'm not good with words.

yeah... i just wanted you to know that. love you dearest friend. always. himnaeseyo! fighting!!

20 September 2012

Can't say it...

Dear friend, before I say anything, you should know that out of all the people around me right now, I love you dearly and I love you most. Even over my own family.

I realize now that what I said has hurt your feelings and I'm very sorry for that, but it's not what I meant. The reason I said what I said was because I can't deal with the possibility of you leaving but I also don't want to be the reason you stick around when your heart really doesn't want to. So please know that I don't want you to go and I've told you that before, but if you really can't go on then you should do what you feel is best for you and your future.

Only one important thing you should know is, I don't like to see you quitting on yourself. You are so much better than you think you are and you can overcome any hardship you face. I know it, because I know my friend is a strong girl. I can't do it without you. That's the truth. I'm weak and you're the strong one that's why I don't feel brave enough to tell you that if you go, then I might not make it myself.

I'm not even brave enough to say it to you in person because I'm not good at this thing. I don't know how to do it. So I hope that when you read this you know how I feel about this and I just hope you don't give up on yourself.


Much LOVE.

10 January 2012

you don't need to speak, to be able to sing~

"Almost everybody in the world listens to American music. But not everybody understands English. So why are people so shocked that we listen to Korean music even if we don’t understand Korean?"

yes, someone please do enlighten me. i'm already so sick of people asking, "do you even know what they're saying?" yeah. if someone can answer that question, and persuade me to agree with your opinion that you NEED to understand a language to enjoy the music, then email me and i'll mail you 20 bucks over the internet. (see: that's never gonna happen.)


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from the words of SWAG queen Lee Chaerin or better known as CL of 2NE1;

Music has no language barrier. It’s just music, you could just listen to it and feel it. When you’re on stage, you connect to it. It doesn’t matter if it’s in Korean, or in English. It’s just a matter of what we show and inspire.





food for thought. thanks for visiting today!^^ assalamualaikum.

08 January 2012

we didn't have this "green" thing back then

i had a friend on facebook share this and i totally agree with it.


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"Checking out at the grocery store recently, the young cashier suggested I should bring my own grocery bags because plastic bags weren't good for the environment. I apologized and explained, "We didn't have this green thing back in my earlier days." The clerk responded, "That's our problem today. Your generation did not care enough to save our environment for future generations." She was right about one thing -- our generation didn't have the green thing in “Our” day.

So what did we have back then…? After some reflection and soul-searching on "Our" day here's what I remembered we did have....

Back then, we returned milk bottles, soda bottles and beer bottles to the store. The store sent them back to the plant to be washed and sterilized and refilled, so it could use the same bottles repeatedly. So they really were recycled. But we didn't have the green thing back in our day. We walked up stairs, because we didn't have an escalator in every store and office building. We walked to the grocery store and didn't climb into a 300-horsepower machine every time we had to go two blocks. But she was right. We didn't have the green thing in our day.

Back then, we washed the baby's diapers because we didn't have the throw-away kind. We dried clothes on a line, not in an energy gobbling machine burning up 220 volts -- wind and solar power really did dry our clothes back in our early days. Kids got hand-me-down clothes from their brothers or sisters, not always brand-new clothing. But that young lady is right. We didn't have the green thing back in our day.

Back then, we had one TV, or radio, in the house -- not a TV in every room. And the TV had a small screen the size of a handkerchief (remember them?), not a screen the size of the state of Montana. In the kitchen, we blended and stirred by hand because we didn't have electric machines to do everything for us. When we packaged a fragile item to send in the mail, we used wadded up old newspapers to cushion it, not Styrofoam or plastic bubble wrap. Back then, we didn't fire up an engine and burn gasoline just to cut the lawn. We used a push mower that ran on human power. We exercised by working so we didn't need to go to a health club to run on treadmills that operate on electricity. But she's right. We didn't have the green thing back then.

We drank from a fountain when we were thirsty instead of using a cup or a plastic bottle every time we had a drink of water. We refilled writing pens with ink instead of buying a new pen, and we replaced the razor blades in a razor instead of throwing away the whole razor just because the blade got dull. But we didn't have the green thing back then.

Back then, people took the streetcar or a bus, and kids rode their bikes to school or walked instead of turning their moms into a 24-hour taxi service. We had one electrical outlet in a room, not an entire bank of sockets to power a dozen appliances. And we didn't need a computerized gadget to receive a signal beamed from satellites 2,000 miles out in space in order to find the nearest pizza joint.

We did as we were asked BECAUSE WE RESPECTED OUR PARENTS. But isn't it sad that the current generation laments how wasteful we old folks were just because we didn't have the green thing back then? So now you know what to answer when some smarty-pants young person thinks a selfish old person needs a lesson in conservation."


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haha. even though i can also be categorized as the current generation, i totally admit it. we're supremely spoiled nowadays and it's kinda scary how we forget and take things for granted.

my grandparents still do things the old way. they watch from a 10" television, sit in rocking chairs, wash the clothes in the sink and dry them on a line. my grandma cooks rice manually in a pot on the stove and uses a bulky phone from the 1940s or probably even older since it uses the turn dial instead of buttons. it's crazy. and since they're old, we always want try to make things easier for them and try to give them stuff like an electric rice cooker, a cordless phone, a washing machine and my grandma refuses them.

just imagine. an old person NEEDS these things because in their old age they are no longer capable to do everything manually yet they refuse them, but for us who don't really need it, want extra things. you can have a regular TV, instead you want HD TV with crazy sound system. you have perfectly mint condition furniture, yet you change them every few years because they're "outdated" and you don't like them anymore and etc.

for me, eventhough i like having a washing machine and a clothes dryer and the air conditioner in my room and my touch screen mobile phone, these things last almost 10 years. for my family, as long as it's still working, there's no reason to get new ones. our TV is still the massive blocky clunky 90s TV and we still have a radio in the house. i still have cassette albums and we only recently bought a new washing machine after almost 7 years? i think. we changed to the newer model button program washing machine. but up until last year, we were still using the manual two cycle wash and rinse washing machine. my brother still rides his bike to school and our living room furniture is still the old wooden 3 set that's been furnished and refurnished a dozen times over 20 years. we had to throw out a few pieces because the spring came loose and several wooden parts cracked. we don't even have a sofa in our house. lol. so i guess in "green" terms our family's not bad. we do use the reusable shopping bag whenever we can and recycle old news paper and old magazines so we do our part i suppose. and i'm happy about that.

and i've always said that in the future when i can afford my own house, i'm gonna get myself a studio where my living space is all in one area so i don't need too many appliances or furniture. i don't like living in excess anyway. cept for maybe excess of food. haha. and excess of high speed internet. kekeke.

so what about you guys? what do you do to contribute to the "green" thing?

03 January 2012

bittersweet new year

HAPPY NEW YEAR friends!^^ i hope this year, Allah brings upon better things for you and me and our families.

well certainly, Allah has brought my tok mama to a better place the first day of 2012. He loves her more and i pray she rests in peace. Al-Fatihah.

we'll miss you a lot tok mama.

assalamualaikum. thanks for visiting guys and happy new year.