14 August 2010

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN.

assalamualaikum!^^

it's that time of year again. huhuhu. i know i'm late, but i just wanted to wish all of you;

HAPPY CELEBRATING THE MONTH OF RAMADHAN!!

make sure you fast for the whole month!! and the ladies, make sure you replace the days you can't fast. huhuhu^^

that's all!
thanks for dropping by!!

*shatters* yo ma HRTBRKR!!!!!! TT^TT

assalamualaikum!

be warned that you are abt to enter anguished obsessed fangirl territory.


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i just read this at ibigbang just now and it's safe to say i'm royally FLIPPIN OUT!!


waaaarghhhh~!!!!!! TT^TT

even tho it might sound like a rumor, it feels like i'd be in extreme denial to not believe this. i mean, he's been practically glowing recently and you know how YGFam rolls? they keep it a secret and then BAM!! 6 yrs later, a statement comes out;
"i'm sorry i lied, but she's ma girl!"
just look at se7en oppa and hanbyul unnie. srsly!! i'm flippin out tho right now. I CANNOT SEEM TO ACCEPT IT! my heart is shattering and i'm just this close to bawling. i know, i know. i sound like an obsessed fangirl and i should feel happy for him. but I DO, just give me a month or FIVE. TT^TT

i knew this was a possibility! the songs, the lyrics, the possible couple rings! argh!! he even pointed out to her in ViVi magazine during a ViVi interview in japan! proven in THIS article.


*insert fangirl wailing and sobbing*
*sniffles*


i know i sound pathetic right abt now..... but my heart can't take it!!! and Ms.Kiko's only a year older than me.... that just makes it worse! cuz in my mind, in an alternate universe where i'm pretty and not fat..... i coulda had a chance with him! (fangirl daydreams.... pls don't hold it against me.)

i'm not gonna be in denial. i'm not gonna believe YG's "they're just close friends" statement because it's too obvious that they're not and my gut tells me it's true and i've already accepted the fact that he's dating this beautiful, gorgeous girl. TT^TT she even made a suspicious video!




see how pretty she is??? TT^TT
oppa, you're really my HEARTBREAKER.

*sobsob*

and then we have this little video of an interview. just watch, at 3.16.... he was being so obvious abt it tho. gaaaahhhh~!!


(you can watch part 2 on the channel if you want.)




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.......................oh well. i can only wish what's best for him.

if he's happy then i'm happy too, i guess.

(although, if this turns out to be untrue after all, then consider this a premature breakdown moment for when it does become true.)

*sniffles*


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end fangirl rant.

a bitterswet day for GD stans in VIP land. TT^TT


13 August 2010

my problem with GDragon

i know it's an old issue, but i just recently stumbled upon this blog post and it wouldn't let me reply, so imma reply here.

this is the blog post;
*click*

this is my reply to it.

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i'm a fan of GD and i do see the points you're making. i get it. but unfortunately i have to disagree with you on some points. i'm also a bit on the confused side of this whole ordeal. i believe and admit that the song does sound like 'right round' for a few seconds there, but at the same time, i honestly think the rest of the song is originally his. he may not be mozart, (i've never heard any GD fan say this btw. only you.) but he definitely has talent. and the thing abt this whole so-called plagiarism accusation is the fact that the part that sounds similiar is only the actual rap flow of the first verse. and as far as i know, you can't copyright a rap flow. the beat was vaguely similar, the lyrics are completely different and the whole vibe of the song was completely different. so, if you wanna call that blatant plagiarism, then your opinion, good for you.

people keep highlighting GD's rabid irrational fans, but i've seen a lot of smart arguments written in his defense by the more knowledgable GD fans and i see no one saying how brilliant their post was.

and YG never marketed him as a genius. it has never come out of his mouth saying this boy is a genius. i only recall YG saying he was impressed with GD's talents when he was really young. the only people i see making a hoo-ha out of him are the audiences themselves, the media, the people around him and the reporters. i have never called him a genius, i only see him as a very talented young man who is growing and learning, however he does have his genius moments and ppl who disagree are hypocritically biased themselves.

as for the repeated accusations, well, perhaps it was wrong of YG to credit him so much so early in the beginning with the songs he has laid his hands on. it was premature confidence and it was too early in the game to largely credit him. he was way too young when 'lies' and 'haruharu' came out and probably didn't know any better and i feel bad that he had to endure a plagiarism accusation at such a young age. however, that doesn't completely discredit him as one helluva talented song-writer/composer/producer. i, myself, do admit that GD's forte is rewriting songs. BUT, at the same time, he has also written a lot of other amazing songs for BIGBANG. why only focus on the scandalous ones? i say give credit where credit is due. (hmmm.... ironic. i know. sorry.)

and mind you, being accused of plagiarizing doesn't mean the person makes crappy songs. all the songs he's said to have plagiarized are all award winning songs and are great songs that are talked abt and are still played until today. they remain crowd favorites and are some of the more internationally well-known kpop songs ever. again, all the charges of plagiarism have been dropped therefore his credibility is still very well intact. the only people who refuse to accept this are the haters and the people much like yourself.

honestly, i think he just enjoys recreating a lot. putting his spin to things. that's the way he goes abt his fashion, too. he sees something and tries to put his own flavor to it. in essence, that's what art is. some people are just better at it than others. you don't just create a song out of nothing. it has to come from somewhere. GD just uses more from influence than others. he did that 'this love' remake, he did 'crazy dog' which was remade from seo taiji's song, he worked on the remake for 'last farewell', he also remade buddy YB's 'look only at me'. i think he just likes to do that alot. which totally gets him in trouble when something like this happens knowing how horrible the korean netizens are. i don't think he ever copies on purpose, i think he just is heavily influenced by what he listens to that sometimes it overflows into the songs he writes and gets him into trouble. which honestly to me, is always blown way out of proportion.

don't get me wrong, i'm not denying that it might have been unintentional copying on his part and i'm not gonna argue whether it's wrong or not. it IS wrong, what i'm arguing here is that, you people try to make it as if he copied the entire song when he didn't, make it out as if he totally ripped off the lyrics and the beats when he didn't, and act as if he's the ONLY artist in kpop to have ever done it. i think it's unfair that you target him and him alone. if you want to have a problem with GD, have a problem with ALL of those people plagiarizing out there. and btw, he has been cleared of the charges, whether you like it or not. which means the accusations have been found to be invalid. he even made a remix of 'heartbreaker' with flo-rida featured on it. if he truly did plagiarize 'right round' then wouldn't sony or whatever parties involved want nothing to do with GD? if he truly did plagiarize 'right round' why would flo-rida agree to a feature? doesn't make sense. it proves GD is innocent or at least only partly guilty.

and the other songs on his solo album accused for plagiarism are baseless hateful accusations. what's exactly so similar abt 'butterfly' and 'she's electric' hmmm? that one high note??? honestly, 'butterfly' aint anywhere near as plagiarized as 'heartbreaker' was to 'right round' and i could babble all day abt chord progressions and all that jazz, but you probably have more smart things to say abt that. similar?? yes. a blatant copy? hardly. even Oasis fans came out to say that GD isn't anywhere near a copycat as Oasis themselves were. and i quote;

>>"nobody in oasis would be offended by this GDragon similarity, there is one short vocal melody which is similar, the same vocal melody that can be found in the Beatles 'While My Guitar Gently Weeps' btw. It's not theft, its just a fuckin jam"

>>"even though i love oasis, they ripped off this riff from Roy Orbisons "You Got It". that part of the 2 songs sounds way more similiar then that GDragon shit!" (note that this person even called GD 'shit' so definitely not biased right there)

>>"G Dragon's Butterfly sounds a little like this song... and this song sounds a little like 6 Beatles songs strung together. I'm really hearing While My Guitar Gently Weeps in the chorus."

take a look at this video and come back to me abt being original.



watch and then chill.

and finally, the problem i have with ppl who have problems with GD??
y'all make him out to be the worst musician on earth for having written similar songs or unoriginal songs, when other artists get away with the same things he does. hyori got caught, GD got caught. fine. accusations aren't completely baseless there. but you talk as if GD is the only korean to assumably plagiarize! emphasis on the assume, prz. he's not the only one, yet ppl make a HUGE freaking deal out of it, simply because he's the one you love to hate. i can spend 10 years of my life looking for little bits and pieces off a song that sounds exactly the same in another song yet none of them get the amount of hate GD's getting.

i honestly understand where you're coming from and i do think you make a very good argument, but again, reactions are blown out of proportion and hatred is misplaced. peace.

p/s: sorry my 2cents became longer than your entire blog post. sorry, sorry.

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yea, so that's all for my rant today. hehe^^

26 April 2010

i have LOST myself.

woooo~ dramatic title. lols. i know. moody time. it's been a long while since i've come to this place to seek comfort.


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i have lost myself. i need it back. where can i find it? what would i find if i do? would i be different? changed by the places and seasons i've passed through? or would i be unscathed and return in old memories lost?

i loved drawing with a passion. i used to immerse myself.... sink into it so much so that i completely forget who i am, where i am and how much time lingers by. completely unreachable beside my minds phantom fantasies and vivid illusions. now i barely hold a pencil to a surface.

i enjoyed writing things. poems. stories. lyrics..... even my deepest thoughts, even if they only last a pitiful moment before it gets torn and forgotten. now i write insignificant words along meaningless musings of an empty day.

i have lost myself within all chaos and discrepancies in life that refuse to rid themselves beyond all sight. i need it back. i need me.

need me. please.
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lol. a little impromptu emo drabble. it's how i really feel though. lately it's just getting through day by day for me. i don't even know what i'm doing with myself. i get up, go to class and come back unsatisfied. studying used to cheer me up a lot. my brain gears turn and i'm like a well oiled nerdy machine. maths? peace of cake. chemistry? you got it! now everything's creaky and rusty. NOTHING satisfies me anymore. even eating! would you imagine? me? the notorious foodie. tired of food.

guess it all just boils down to needing someone. or an inspiration. a good good friend. someone like a sister. cuz i don't have one. or maybe a close family bond? ........nope. don't have that either. i come home and all i miss is my room.

dad isn't around. messed up and did some fucked up stuff i've never really cared about. mom just doesn't understand that i need her to be my friend. she just keeps pushing me away. breaking my heart with every word she says. my brothers have their own thing. they prolly don't even care about me. do i care about them? very questionable.

sum it up?

i have no family. i have a father, a mother and two siblings. NO FAMILY. my room is my home. not the entire house. i step out of my room and i'm on alien territory. neutral grounds.

i miss being with me. but who am i really? i didn't have a childhood. most of those years were spent sticking my nose between school books and being the kid that tries to please everyone. the over-achiever, the teacher's pet. someone else. was it me living through those days? i have my doubts.

i wish i had a sister. maybe i'd turn out different. someone i can talk to and tell my problems and fears and worries. someone to fight with, someone to protect, someone that would protect me. i just need someone i can talk to with earnest. i have yet to find that person. i dunno. maybe the problem lies in myself. i realize i'm not someone who can really open up about things. it's hard. you never know if the person you open up to would honestly listen to you, or whether they would just mute you out and ignore you till you're done and over with it. i wonder, do they really like to be with me? if they don't like me, then i wouldn't wanna bother them with my pathetic stories. i dunno.

this is why i'd rather be alone. within the comfort of my own thoughts. books. music. alone. it's better. i'm addicted to solitude, really. oh! but is that my problem, perhaps? maybe that's why people don't bother to ask me out? "oh, she'd rather hang out by herself anyway. why bother asking?" is that it? wrong guys. i love my friends more than blood. yea, i enjoy being alone. doesn't mean i wouldn't be hurt if you left me out of the group. it hurts, really. truly. terribly.

well, hopefully i find someone that would be able to help me find myself and stop me from losing my way. hopefully, i won't ever have to feel lost ever again. just need someone.

hopefully....

10 February 2010

nuts crunchy crunchy nuts!!!